The Burden of Perpetual Grief, Revisited

(May 29, 2022) This past week there was another horrible school shooting. Another. This time in Texas. It boggles the mind. As I’ve attempted to process it in my heart, I was reminded of the following post I wrote back in 2018 when a similar thing happened. I figured it might be worthwhile to share the post again.

(Feb 2, 2018) After the horrible school tragedy this week in Parkland, Florida, I set about to learn more about these horrific crimes. I came across the story of a similar event that happened almost 90 years ago. It got me thinking, and when I do that, I like to write about it to help me process.

On May 19, 1927 in the town of Bath Michigan, an angry, evil man detonated bombs in a public school, resulting in the deaths of 38 children and 6 adults. To this day, it is the worst school massacre in US history. It was a horrific event.  Bath Township and the neighboring city of Lansing were paralyzed with grief from the tragedy. The news slowly spread across the country, but was essentially pushed off the headlines by the news of Charles Lindbergh’s successful crossing of the Atlantic two days later. (More on bombing)

Evil things still happen. As I’m sure you know, just this past Wednesday, an angry young man shot and killed 17 people at a High School in Parkland, Florida. It, too, was a horrific event. It is very fresh and very troubling, and a sad commentary on how far we have not come in 100 years.

As I learned more about the two massacres, I began to think about how the reaction to the two events are similar, yet different. In the case of the Michigan tragedy, the local citizenry was devastated, and the news trickled out to the world. However, If I had been living in Arizona at the time, there is a very good chance that I might not have known about it for days, unless I had the radio on, or saw it in the newspaper. Or, possibly, I might never have heard about it.

Contrast that to last Tuesday. As many others did, I followed the news coverage on my computer in real time. I watched live helicopter video of students leaving the building. I saw grieving parents and anguished students making statements and detailing what they experienced. It was brutal and tore at my heart. Since then, there has been endless coverage, video clips, articles, and articles. Names, faces, stories. Social media has exploded with both pain and anger, and plenty of politicizing of the event. You can get in as deep as you want.

In 1927, the forms of mass media were limited to radio and newspapers. Today, the means are unlimited: regular and satellite radio, streaming, cable and satellite television, smart phones, social media such as Twitter, Facebook, etc. The news can get to us from anywhere, at anytime. Instantly. To paraphrase Mark Twain, “Bad news can travel halfway around the world while good news is putting on its shoes.”

(Insert, 2022) The Russian invasion of the Ukraine has brought modern warfare into the homes and pockets of every phone-carrying American. Streaming video of bombings and killings are sent to our phones and televisions live, often unfiltered, and very graphic. The images of pain and desperation of refugees, wounded civilians and soldiers, and bodies lying in the streets are ever-present.

Here is what has been occupying my brain for the past few days: We have the potential to be besieged by tragic news on a daily basis – and not just to be informed of the tragedy, but to be witnesses to it. Constantly. This is something unique to our time. Even a historic event such as Pearl Harbor was communicated via telegram, radio and newspaper, but when the twin towers came down on 9/11, you probably watched it live on TV, like I did.

In both previous eras and today, people naturally struggle with personal burdens and grief. I would suggest that there has never been an era where people have been so exposed to other people’s suffering on a daily basis as we are today, with perhaps an exception for life during wartime. We not only carry our personal burdens, but take upon ourselves burdens from people we have never met, from all parts of the world.

There is an endless stream of tragedy that we are now exposed to. Just last week there were deaths from plane crashes, the flu and murders, a stock market crash, wars and earthquakes – in addition to the school school shooting. Add to it the personal tragedies we experience, along with the stress that comes from money, politics, social issues, and you have a constant stream of baggage and pain, coming at us from all sides.

Is it any wonder that our society is inundated by anxiety, stress, depression, malaise, sadness and anger? There are so many legitimate reasons to grieve, and all you need to do is look around and you can find one – or a hundred. Daily.

As I watch these tragedies unfold, my heart hurts. It doesn’t matter that I am next door, thousands of miles away, or on the other side of the world. I commiserate. I feel empathy. I feel grief.

Mind you, I have experienced grief at a much more immediate and personal level than seeing it happen remotely. Chrissie and I have lost our moms, our dads, siblings, a pregnancy, and dear friends and other loved ones. We know the weight of grief all too well.

Grief is a burden. It can be incapacitating. It can change our perspective on life. It can affect our relationships. It can challenge our faith. The burden of grief is exhausting, and given the nature of this crisis-filled world we live in, it is relentless.

Yet at the same time we are told:

•  …men are, that they might have joy.  (2 Nephi 2:25)

•  “A loving Heavenly Father desires to see His children happy.” (President Hinckley)

“and in this life I shall have joy” (Moses 5:10)

• “We shouldn’t wait to be happy until we reach some future point, only to discover that happiness was already available—all the time!” (President Uchtdorf)

How do we do it? How do we acknowledge and empathize with the pain, suffering and trauma that is running rampant in the world, and yet walk around “happy” without feeling guilty or seeming to be heartless? I do not believe God expects us to live in a perpetual state of sackcloth and ashes.

Here are a few ideas to consider. I am well-aware that each item could easily warrant its very own blog post, but I will keep it short.

• First, find some perspective: Life is not supposed to be happy all the time. President Boyd K.Packer taught that “It was meant to be that life would be a challenge. To suffer some anxiety, some depression, some disappointment, even some failure is normal. Teach our members that if they have a good, miserable day once in a while, or several in a row, to stand steady and face them. Things will straighten out. There is great purpose in our struggle in life.”(That All May Be Edified [1982], 94).

• Next, remember that happiness is a choice we make. President Uchtdorf taught “The older we get, the more we look back and realize that external circumstances don’t really matter or determine our happiness We do matter. We determine our happiness. You and I are ultimately in charge of our own happiness. Let us resolve to be happy, regardless of our circumstances.”

• Remember who we are. Elder Joseph Wirthlin taught, “You are stronger than you think. Your Heavenly Father, the Lord and Master of the universe, is your Creator. When I think of it, it makes my heart leap for joy. Our spirits are eternal, and eternal spirits have immeasurable capacity!

• Turn to each other. As members of the Church, we should be willing to “willing to mourn with those that mourn; yea, and comfort those that stand in need of comfort.” (Mosiah 18:9)

• Step up. Elder Withlin taught, “Our Father in Heaven does not wish us to cower. He does not want us to wallow in our misery. He expects us to square our shoulders, roll up our sleeves, and overcome our challenges.”

• Live righteously. “But learn that he who doeth the works of righteousnessshall receive his reward, even peace in this world, and eternal life in the world to come.” (D&C 59:23)

President James E. Faust answered the question, “Will I be happy?” we can answer: “Of course! You are going to be happy, and even more. If you keep the covenants and commandments of God, you will have the joy promised by the Savior when he walked upon the earth.” (link)

• Embrace the Holy Ghost. The Lord refers to the Holy Ghost as “The Comforter” for a reason:

But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” (John 14:26-27)

President James E. Faust taught, “I believe the Spirit of the Holy Ghost is the greatest guarantor of inward peace in our unstable world. It can be more mind-expanding and can make us have a better sense of well-being than any chemical or other earthly substance. It will calm nerves; it will breathe peace to our souls… It is a way of maximizing our happiness.” (link)

• And ultimately, turn to the Savior, as He has asked us to do.

“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

“Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

“For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light” (Matthew 11:28–30).

“And he shall go forth, suffering pains and afflictions and temptations of every kind; and this that the word might be fulfilled which saith he will take upon him the pains and the sicknesses of his people.

And he will take upon him death, that he may loose the bands of death which bind his people; and he will take upon him their infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh, that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities” (Alma 7:11–12).

The Savior has invited us to cast those burdens upon Him. I belief that our grief is one of those burdens that He is willing to take from us. We are not meant to carry those burdens by ourselves, indefinitely. Christ has already suffered for that grief.

Elder Bednar explained, “Thus, the Savior has suffered not just for our sins and iniquities—but also for our physical pains and anguish, our weaknesses and shortcomings, our fears and frustrations, our disappointments and discouragement, our regrets and remorse, our despair and desperation, the injustices and inequities we experience, and the emotional distresses that beset us.

There is no physical pain, no spiritual wound, no anguish of soul or heartache, no infirmity or weakness you or I ever confront in mortality that the Savior did not experience first. In a moment of weakness we may cry out, “No one knows what it is like. No one understands.” But the Son of God perfectly knows and understands, for He has felt and borne our individual burdens. And because of His infinite and eternal sacrifice, He has perfect empathy and can extend to us His arm of mercy. He can reach out, touch, succor, heal, and strengthen us to be more than we could ever be and help us to do that which we could never do relying only upon our own power. Indeed, His yoke is easy and His burden is light.” (link)

The tragedies that surround us – along with those that come at us from a distance – can send us reeling. The grief is real, but even so, grief does not need to be a lifestyle. We can be aware of what is going on around us. We can be in the world, but we can also live in our own world of joy, peace and happiness.

After the 9/11 attacks, President Hinckley spoke in General Conference, concluding by saying, “Are these perilous times? They are. But there is no need to fear. We can have peace in our hearts and peace in our homes. We can be an influence for good in this world, every one of us.” (link)

God’s plan, and the Savior’s teachings and atonement teach us how to find peace and happiness. We are not meant to carry a perpetual burden of grief.


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  1. Always, always remember what Alma said to Amulek: “…The Spirit constraineth me that I must not stretch forth mine hand; for the Lord receiveth them up unto himself, in glory; and he doth suffer that they may do this thing, or that the people may do this thing unto them, according to the hardness of their hearts, that the judgements which he shall exercise upon them in his wrath may be just; and the blood of the innocent shall stand as a witness against them, yea, and cry mightily against them at the last day.” (Alma 14:11)

    And, turn off your phones! Refuse to watch the soul numbing parade of violence. The stress of watching and feeling helpless to do anything is far greater than the stress of finding out later (or not at all) and just being able to go about your day in a more contented state. The problem is evil and we can’t change evil hearts on a global scale. Hearts are changed one by one through personal actions by and interactions with those who know Jesus Christ and can lead others to Him individually.

  2. “It’s important that everyone knows that I’m so much more than the bad things that happen to me… You can’t wait until life isn’t hard anymore before you decide to be happy.”

    “I have a 2 percent chance of survival, but 2 percent is not 0 percent. Two percent is something, and I wish people knew how amazing it is.”

    Jane Kristen Marczewski (December 29, 1990 – February 19, 2022) known as Nightbirde, June 2021 on AGT

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